Do you know what I've learned since returning to work? I've come to understand why I like being a full-time-stay-at-home Mom. Ready? It's because I'm in control here at home. Or, at the very least, I can convince myself of that lie. If I don't remember to run the dishwasher then I have to deal with that fact. If I choose coffee with a friend over doing two loads of laundry then that's mine to own as well. If I want a great meal then I have to cook it. If I want to blow it all off and head to Sam & Ethals for a meal then only my pocket book suffers along with me. You get the idea.
It simply doesn't work that way when you work outside of the home. There are many personalities involved. There are people with different priorities and desires. This truth makes work a challenge and frustration a reality. Hear me out! For those of you who have been working outside of the home, you read this and scoff. I understand, honest I do. But, it's been a long time for me. How long? Four years! But, oh, it seems so much longer.
So, for the record, my focus is to table what can be tabled and give God the rest. This is new territory for me - working in a small office environment. I normally don't succeed here because my personality is too abrasive over time. Or maybe I don't handle the "people with different priorities and desires" very well. All of what I write is noted and I'm owning what is mine. However, my plan is to adapt. My plan is to submit and smile. This school has been around for a very long time before me and will still be standing for a long time after me, so I really need to embrace a humble spirit and wear it for the world to see.
Thank you, God, for this incredible opportunity. Please grow me to be pleasing in your eyes.
My mantra when first sending our kids to this school was and still is, "Submit to authority." As a Mom I needed to do that, and anyone who knows me knows that this does not come natural. It can only be accomlished by focusing and giving annoyances and frustrations over to God. In this new position I will have to continue to focus on submitting to authority. This is a great job, but I have some growing pains as I learn and develop in the position.
Asking for your help, God.
Traci
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